My anxiety disorder

Anxiety is a continual state of mind for me.  Even when God pours out blessing upon blessing, I can always find something to be anxious about.  But this attitude reveals a greater fault–a lack of trust in God.  Looking even further, the root of this lack of trust, extends to disbelief in God’s love.  The only source of help is to be reminded of God’s love—I must make a path daily, hourly, how ever often, to the Word of God, to speak truth to my mind and heart.  

A Spurgeon devotional I sneak to quite often addresses the sin and danger of being overly anxious:

“Cast your burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain you.”  Psalm 55:22

“Care, even though exercised on legitimate objects, if carried to excess, has in it the nature of sin.  The precept to avoid anxious care is earnestly instilled by our Saviour, again and again, in His teachings.  It is reiterated by the apostles, and it is one that cannot be neglected without involving transgression; for the very essence of anxious care is the imagining that we are wiser than God, and the thrusting of ourselves into His place to do for Him what He has undertaken to do for us.

We attempt to think of that which we imagine He will forget.  We labour to take on ourselves our weary burden, as if He were unable or unwilling to take it for us.  Now this disobedience to His plain precept, this unbelief in His Word, this presumption in intruding on His province, is all sinful.  Yet more than this, anxious care often leads to acts of sin.  He who cannot calmly leave His affairs in God’s hand, but will carry his own burden, is very likely to be tempted to use wrong means to help himself.

This sin leads to forsaking of God as our Counselor, resorting instead to human wisdom.  This is going to the “broken cisterns” (Jeremiah 2:13) instead of to the “fountain of living waters” (v.13)– a sin that was laid against ancient Israel. 

Anxiety makes us doubt God’s lovingkindness, and thus our love for Him grows cold,  We feel mistrust, and thus grieve the Spirit of God, so that our prayers become hindered, our consistent example marred, and our lives ones of self-seeking.  Thus lack of confidence in God leads us to wander far from Him; but if through simple faith in His promise, we cast each burden as it comes upon Him, and are “careful [anxious] for nothing” because He undertakes to care for us, it will keep us close to Him and strengthen us against much temptation.”

You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You  because he trusts in You.” Isaiah 26:3

 

One thought on “My anxiety disorder

  1. Very well put. The more we exhibit a willingness to trust God, the more He lavishes upon us an uninterrupted flow of grace. We cannot always trust perfectly but in those moments; His grace puts us over the top[so to speak].
    I’ve enjoyed your blog

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